the week this has been

Everything comes in threes they say, and no i am not superstitious.

In primary a kid told me that before something tragic happens the joys and happens that overwhelms you is beyond anything you can comprehend. He said that its like as though the universe is preparing to drop you flat. (And no I don’t believe in the universe.)

I do not fear death but my greatest fear is losing my family to death. It stings.

When Moses left daddy looked me in the eye and told me – your best friend is gone. The first words he said to me.

Should we celebrate life on that day – its easier said than done. For they say blood is thicker than water, actually this is when these words seem to be the most true.

Then Monday, mummy called – her words, “ no we are not fine, your sister just died.” I went numb. This was so close to home but I was so far. My heart melted for daddy, one child you can recover but two that just keep on your toes.

I actually had plans Mary, to hook up, catch up on the things we never got a chance too, like talk about men , steal you clothes – though I think my dress sense was better but there a few thing I could have borrowed never to return., we were to travel the world, you were to attend my wedding and I was to teach you the lingo. When I spoke to daddy I just couldn’t keep it together, not even for him. His words “you had the same heart”.

Tuesday Diana called me, her first words “Kim’s dad just died”. I went nub, now this was going all wrong. I think my primo friend would say that the universe was beening thrown way out of balance. Kim’s dad was sweet, we met a few times, he was a good man. At Kim’s graduation he gave a proud dance, made sure we all got home safe. He collapse and couldn’t make it to hospital in time. I spoke to Kim we couldn’t say much we were in shock. I couldn’t even bring myself to tell her of my end. She didn’t need this, defiantly not today.

Today Aaliyah’s cousin passed on.

This life.